Ok, not using this when something is on my mind is just stupid.  I honestly think I just don't care who sees or doesn't see this [from school, anywhere] anymore.  It’s not worth me not actually using it.

I’m not even sure how to start.  I hate not knowing and not being able to ask.  I mean sure, Sunday, but that’s 2+ days for me to mull everything over and come to conclusions that might not even be true.  But I do, and am.  It sucks especially since it’s over, kinda sorta, myspace.  I mean seriously, how middle school is this.  I know and tell myself it doesn't mean anything, but what if it does?  I mean she is really pretty, and what kills me even more is how well she types, besides the common mistake of spelling 'geez' like 'jeez' or her way, 'jeeze'.  She does go pretty much all out with that though, even capitalization.  But I can't dislike her for being grammatically correct because that would be hypocritical because I just nix out capitalization pretty much.  And now I just so happen to be going off on a different tangent.  So back on topic.  Just with all the information that Charlotte gave me last night, I mean I definitely have to take most of it with a grain of salt, but it did pretty much seem truthful.  Sunday, I don't care.  I need to talk to him about this, its bothering me enough to freakin xanga it. 

Only everything that points me to one conclusion basically goes away when I get a message from him or on aim.  I wanna think or expect the worse, but then I cant because anything he says points me back into the right direction.  If this wasn't gonna go anywhere, why would he have agreed with me to tell charlotte?  That’s a step in the right direction, right?  You’d think it is.  But then last night with charlotte had me almost dead set to just forget about him.  I need to know what to do.  No, even better, I need to talk to him, preferable before Sunday.

It rained today!  That’s probably the only good news that this'll have today.  Worst news probably being that Scott and I can't see each other till probably after my birthday because his parents don't like the fact that I’m [not even] 2 years younger than he is.  Lol its more like a year + a few monthish.  Not that bad at all.  Its definitely sad news.  Maybe though, because of him not really mentioning me at all for the what, 70 odd days, it'll be better in March then.  Hopefully.  There isn't a good side or bright side to this, none that I can find. 
This next piece isn't necessarily bad, but I’m not really looking forward to it.  ACT's are in a month for me, on February 9th at 9 at Appleton east.  I’m not doing the writing portion of it this time, but I think if I redo it, I might. 
Sometimes myspace is stupid.  It drives me crazy sometimes how stupid some people are or how bent out of shape they get over the top friend spaces.  That’s like the reason why I keep mine hidden, it'll just stop drama.  I try not to read too much into that stuff though sometimes it’s hard.  But whatever, its a stupid website.  Facebook is so much better.
And that’s basically it.

Happy post-Christmas!  It was actually kind of fun.  It turns out that Amy, Jen, Aunt Barb, and Eric all got sick, so Holly and Jeff + their troupe of kids decided not to come to my house either.  So we went to go see I am legend.  It's a scary movie, not like the ring scary, but the people in it were.  They looked all ashy, hairless, and always were out to kill.  But overall it was a really good movie.

For Christmas, my biggest present would be a new phone, a razr to be exact!  I kinda figured I’d get one this year, but I didn’t play far enough ahead because they deactivated my old phone so I have no phone numbers now.  But it's pink, or at least the outside case is.  the phone itself is a weird cranberry-brown color.  Kinda gross, but whatever.  It was a good year, present wise too, I got the biggest warmest blanket [tennis] and yeah, it's so warm. 

Well nothing else is really happening today.  I was supposed to go sledding, but with snow [that didn’t even come] conflicts it seems better to just wait till Saturday.  Then Friday is ally's party!  That'll be really fun.  Well, that's about it for now.